I Turned It Off

It has been a looooooong time since I’ve blogged. I mean a loooong time. Ok I’m done. haha. I will leave the catching up to another day, right now I just feel like venting… and being in the moment and calm.

You know when you have so much negativity around you that the only thing to do is to just walk away, be by yourself, and yes.. Breathe. I need to breathe. I’ve recently lost my breath due to so many knives being thrown at me and not having a chance to deflect any of them. I’ve been hit by outside forces and have felt the pain. I’m sure you know what they feels like? A mean comment from someone, being reprimanded at work, a bad grade at school, or even your own negative thoughts making you feel like your not good enough. In the past 24 hours I have cried, dried my tears, cried a little more, been hugged by my husband, complained, and then hugged again. I am a mess sometimes. I admit it. But one positive word of advice from a friend brought me back to the solid state that I choose to live today. I turned off my phone because nothing else can make me feel bad today. I am an amazing person. I have done amazing things. Ask anyone who knows me! Yes I am complimenting myself. Its therapeutic… I think.

So if your ever feeling how I am right now… Just turn off your phone and breathe…. and breathe… and breathe…

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So Engaging

TODAYS INSPIRATION | Love through the Camera | Bryce and I had a mini Engagement shoot last weekend! It was so much fun and absolutely FREE! One thing I’ve learned from planning this wedding is everyone is trying to get their foot in the door with their talent. I went to a Bridal Fair last month and after booking my photographer for $1300  I received an email weeks later from another photographer. I don’t even remember meeting her, but she told me she would love to do so engagement pictures for free. Of course I said YES! Any excuse I can get a shoot I am totally up for it! Here are a few of those! I was really impressed and extremely excited to see them! Let me know what you think!

 

Frida’s Confidence

TODAYS INSPIRATION | Frida’s legacy | Every since I watched the amazing yet ethnically exotic 2002 hollywood version of Frida featuring Selma Hayek, I have been somewhat obsessed with her persona. Not only was her artwork extremely fascinating, but her look and that bodacious eyebrow can not be missed. A beautiful woman with such a history of tragedy and success. Barely do I look through her art, but the iconic face has become a separate masterpiece. Whenever I see it it almost send shivers down my spine. Why? Maybe the curiosity of a lady that to me seems so figured out, so confident, so knowledgeable. In her eyes she has life at her fingertips. I wish to be like this one day. To accomplish what I set out to and love its reward, no matter how much tribulation it cost. I think we all should look up to people like that. Whether is a church leader, a family member, a historical figure, or the one perfect being Jesus Christ.

This last one is my favorite. Her outfit, her strong profile, and her limp hands over the riding  stick. UGH I love the photography! Images by atelier olschinsky found here. Beautiful.

Memorial Day wif my Fiancé

TODAYS INSPIRATION | Remember those by loving each other | Bryce is finally back in the USA!! I am soooo excited! The day after he proposed he left to Europe to backpack for 3 weeks! Yes, you heard me, 3 weeks. I know, soo long. I missed him so much! It was simply unbearable. We made a 24 hour rule this weekend. That after were married, we cannot stay away from each other longer than 24 hours. I think its the best idea ever:) We miss each other too much.

He only was in town for the weekend because he had to drive back to Vegas to work during the week. So we will see each other every weekend, either I drive there or he drives here, until June 25th, when he moves back to Provo for good. Yay!

Here is some of our weekend! I don’t know how I survived without him.

 

 

From Blog Stalker to Best Friends

TODAYS INSPIRATION | Blogging: what is the purpose| Both Whitney  thatgirlwhit, my roomie, and I both agree that when your in a good healthy relationship, a lot of what used to be important, become somewhat less important. For example blogging. When I was going through my breakup with my now fiancé I would blog almost 2 times a day. It was my escape, the one thing to take my mind off the hurt. But now, I rarely have time to blog. I hate it because blogging is my passion. I lived for it. I loved sharing all my ideas out in the open and seeing if others thought I was crazy! That is how I met my Roommate in fact!

I randomly found her blog on wordpress, started following, became best blog friends, started texting eachother, then she moved to Utah from Georgia, and is now my Roommate!!! Hurraayyyy!!!

Now were best friends in Real Life!

We seriously have so much fun together! I can’t imagine a better person in my life right now. She helped me through my breakup, she seriously gave me the best advice and she just understands me! Totes*

Its crazy how life moves. You never know how one action will effect your life. Because of blogging, I found a new best friend. Two thumbs up for WordPress:)

Confusion = Organization

TODAYS INSPIRATION | Layout and Print | Layout and Print has been a huge inspiration to me as I chugged my way through design school. I remember just looking at all the amazing design mag’s and wishing that I could one day do stuff like that and my teachers wouldn’t send me back to the drawing board. I feel like design has taken a backwards turn and….

Take a look at these works and let me know what you think! Personally it stirs something inside of me and makes me want to design all night/day. Its just so full of mystery and prestigue. The hard part about designing like this is trying to find the right client. Clients these days are very rigid, business motivated, and sticks in the mud when it comes to branding. I crave projects that I can do whatever I want! Those always come out 100x’s better than those with the style guide set in concrete. Design is taking over! Join the Parade!

Ok Stop Me now! I can’t wait to design!!! Good thing I’m at work and thats what I do:)