Wow, yesterday was rough. I always didn’t make it out alive. I felt like I was at the bottom of the pool stuck with a rope around my foot trying to get to the surface. Too graphic? ok, in other words, I was struggling. I found myself in a downward spiral of comparison. Comparing my life to everyone elses. Looking at my weakness’ and comparing them to others strengths. I always know when I am really upset I leave work and eat lunch by myself. Unlike me why? I never leave work for lunch, it is a waste of money when there is food here. I also hate being by myself when I could be with others. I am a social being. A little too much at times.
Anyway, I reached out to a good friend of mine that I know always has my back. I expressed why I was so upset. Why I felt so inadequate. Why I felt like I didn’t measure up to what any of my friends and family were accomplishing. Why I wasn’t on a plane right now flying to heaven knows where and feeling the sand in my toes. Why I wasn’t someone else….
“Chelsea, you don’t have to travel or win things to be successful…Success is happiness, not traveling, but being around people you love…”
“Live in the moment..”
And many more things she said that opened my mind and heart to the thought of, “Hey, maybe I do have a pretty good life.”
I have to find success in what I have. If I don’t feel like I am doing enough. Find something more to do! I de de de deffinately don’t have ANY extra time on my hands. BUT, I do have goals and this very moment to decide to be happy.
I hope any of you, if your’e feeling the same way as I did, to turn to a friend that you know is positive and can be that star in the night to pull you out of your slump and remind you of your blessings.